Well, the school year starts on Monday, and it seems I won't get to be a part of it. Had I known in April when I started applying for jobs that when school rolled around I would not get to be a teacher, I don't know what I would have done.
It has become a day to day struggle and search to see if there are any openings locally, and then to get them my info and then play the waiting game. Every time my phone rings and it is a number that I don't recognize my heart races as I wish for it to be my saving grace calling to offer me a job...or even an interview!!!, it doesn't even have to be my dream job- any teaching job would do! It is just such an awful feeling to have this degree and not be able to put it to use. I want to teach not sit in an office all day with no windows!
One of my classmates that I just graduated with (one of the 2 that actually found a job!) was on the news the other night discussing her new classroom and how many late nights she was putting in to get it ready. I sat bolt upright in bed and watched her speak...and then burst into tears of self pity. What I would give to have a classroom to be working on.
So here I sit, waiting, hoping, and praying...trying to be as positive and upbeat about the whole situation as I possibly can. So cross your fingers for me and I will do the same!
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